My Childhood Died

My childhood died all soaked in blood without even a box to be buried in.

I used to say even though I’m twenty-three, I feel like I never grew up.

I can’t say that anymore.

I grew up overnight.

So quickly and painfully that the ache in my heart feels like it will never heal.

I wish I could go back, but you can never go back.

All that is left to me is the future.

A future to run to and be safe from the past.

I’m going to go out and see a couple of movies

All of which I will cry through

But it beats lying in bed all day and crying until I pass out.

The only place worse than where I am now is where I’ve been before and I promised myself I would never set foot on that path again.

So keep your promise Sugabelly.

Ibezina

Choose joy.